~{:bitch..dont cast the first stone..thats my job:}~

~~~~~good first day~~~~~

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:00:40 GMT

...hope you had a great first day at work

.:.got the bartebders pulling shit that you know is obvious.:.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 16:45:44 GMT

....went to the Voodoo lounge last night...had the bartender tell me that he couldnt find my card...said if i came back on thursday..he would give me free drinks..I got my card back.. that little shit...I am into someone else anyways.. wonder how the BBQ went..I am pretty much crashed for the day...bbl..

...loss..eh..I'm not so sure of that...

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 01:38:05 GMT

....wow....some men have this need for dramatics..quick point to ponder..if someone that called you a good friend..turned hateful toward you for saying you needed a break from them...(even though they just got off a self induced break from you themselves)...are or were they ever really a friend?.. did they ever really care..or are they more into supporting their child like tantrum style of rebuttle?... hrmm...

...sick..mother fucking sick...

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 18:45:33 GMT

ok.. so I am fucking blessed with a case of the super allergies..I cant fucking do anything but take a case of benedryl and pass out...all this because I fucking stopped by don and cindys to drop off some camping gear for them..and played with their cat Bandit's new kittens she had 2 weeks ago...I am weak..they were so damn cute..now i itch and cant breath.. fuck..
..so today..is probably going to consist of me taking allergy meds..and fucking myself into a coma..when all else fails..at least make yourself happy..

::::unaturally...natural::::

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 06:53:40 GMT

...feeling like I could lift this mood I am crushed under if i could just wrap my focus around you and pull you closer, has me heading to bed worried that I will end up letting it all pass me by..

.:.answer honestly..or dont answer at all.:.

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 00:11:57 GMT

-:-...OK..call it retardation..call it paranoia..call it self help..heh..but lately I have become more aware of the things that irritate me about the people I talk to daily..*grinz*
::::::saoooooooo::::::::::

....I would like the brutally honest truth from the readers of my journal..*deep breath*..name 1 thing that irritates you about me..be honest...*nods*..I promise not to unleash the fury of the 9th inner circle of hell on you..now be a good fucking friend and trash on me damn it..*smiles*...-:-

~~indecision has blurred my vision~~

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 10:24:24 GMT

..why does everything require a complete and total fucking breakdown into every possibility?...when am I going to be able to just walk into the hazy details of something that feels good and feels new..why do i have this relentless need to break it down and do the mathmatics before hand...most things I fixate on.. arent strong enough to last the durablility testing of my emotional mathematics..i think I have this need to feel like i took all the necessary steps to insure..I am going to walk out of this smiling..maybe I need to jump in head first.. flow.. and deal with whatever comes my way..yeah I am beginning to think I am going to stop with the mentally taxing mindset.. and get what makes me feel good.. no matter what,,

....COME ON..WHAT ELSE COULD YOU BE DOING..LIKE LJ AND MY SPACE USERS ARE OH SO BUSY..DO ME....

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 15:56:16 GMT

~"*"~informative..on various levels..if you know me..post what you know..if you dont know me..and you want to..even if you dont..post what you would like to know or think you already know about me...do it..I mean come on..what else are you doing?..oh yeah..sitting here looking for something to do..*ta-daaaa*..here it is..do me..heh~"*"~ {much-love}

.:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:..:.
1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it?

7. Describe me in one word?

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
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""~:you fell away..what more can I say?..the feelings evolved..i wont let it out:~""

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 03:18:44 GMT

.:*:..:*:.{and with a wave of a fucking imaginary wand..I have been hyperblessed with the gift of the surreal "what if" mindset}.:*:..:*:.
*coughs*...it isnt like I am complaining because I am turning into this angst-filled conspiracy theorist..my what ifs have been mostly amusing..
(like the wonderful dreams of fucking people from the damn net..not just friends..I always dream of fucking them..I am talking about people I have not even met yet..it is starting to worry me..it is..ya know..THE net..*twitches*...I am on a 4 night streak of this netfucker thing..dream wise..I wonder if it will stop tonight..*shrugs*..like I said..amusing...
~:for some fucking reason..lately I have felt like looking around for somewhere else to have wet dreams about internet contacts..aka..moving..I think it isnt so much that I want to move as it is just I am becoming consumed by this need for change..maybe I am bored..*shrugs*:~
*ponders*..it isnt that I am unhappy..not at all..actually I have been a smiley girl lately..everything is better than good..it is just that I feel like I should just do everything that crosses my mind right when it does..so I cant feel like I missed out..but lose out on what?..thats the part where I am confused..I am not really lacking anything
......................*SPRINT SUCKS ANAL WARTS*............................
(random outburst brung to you by "miaisfuckinglackingbarsignalstrengthonhernewcellcauseshelivesinthefuckingbooniesandisgoingtofirebombsprintheadquartersiftheydontputupatowernearhersoon")
Katy and Talia are in town helping Talias brother move his shit up here..he is going to psu next fall..so we are going to lunch downtown and fuck around..there is a comfort in hanging out with the people you grew up with..especially when you grew up in a small town..there is a familiarity that seems calming..*smiles*..so I am all fucking excited for that..oh and the fact my candles I ordered from the candle party i went to fucking kick so much ass..I am a total candle freak..I go through at least 8 votives a day..plus the tealights and other various large sized ones i burn constantly..but this company..PartyLite..their candles are fucking YUMMY...plus..they burn differently..there is no wax residue.. they burn untill they dissapear..all thats left is the metal wick holder..oh one more thing..Dan the wonder roomie..made dinner..and for once..it didnt taste like an ass filled with hotgarbage stuffing..heh..all is well in the mia household

.....I know it has been a while..since I posted here..I guess having assumptions made on who my entries were about and what they meant started to really fucking bother me..look..if you ask if I was referring to you..I will own up to it..maybe the dramatics you hate so much wouldnt be such a problem if you stopped creating them inside that head of yours...
.......something to fucking ponder...eh?......
oh..and my space link is http://profiles.myspace.com/users/18079753
(for those who keep losing it..heh)

posted here and on myspace

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 23:08:17 GMT

fuck..call it PMS..call it whatever you want..but climbing inside your own head to wonder why you have a huge pile of unresolved feelings sitting over there in the corner of your mind really fucking takes a toll on you...I have this tendency to downplay how I feel..how I think..what I want..ALL because of this amazingly huge pride I possess...when it comes down to it..yeah..I fucking fell HARD..I wanted BAD..and I HATE thinking about what or who else is in the place where I should be..but would I ever say that?.. would I ever admit that?..fuck no..fuck you..fuck that..I got a major pride issue here..and as much as I want it..my pride suffocates my ability to say so..yeah..it isnt something I will grow out of..it is something that is going to have to be ripped out of my chest by someone who calls me on my fucking bullshit pride issues..now that..fucking scares me...

.:.it.:.has.:.been.:.a.:.few.:.

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 21:25:23 GMT

sooooooo...its been a few days..since i blogged..or really been online..
I am in super distracted mode with life..and it is a good thing..heh..I miss some people that I talk to on here..some I miss a lot..as in..A FUCKING LOT..but it's all good..I will be on more now..since I am taking a break from some shit..OHHH YEAH!!!...I got a My space account because some of my fam have an account there..and I want to keep in touch with them regularly...here if you have a my space account.. add me!!!
heh..well thats pretty much all I am gonna post right now..I have to get ready for dinner...yay for greek food..heh

""all the little stupid shit in a day that reminds me""

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 08:05:25 GMT

....I wonder how many times in a day I can tell myself that "I dont think about someone enough to care about them seriously"...
right
before
they
cross
my
mind.....
again
......

""QUIZZES RESULTS ARE LEADING ME INTO A LIFE OF SIN AND PERVERSION""

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 02:53:24 GMT

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.:.fucking.:.sponges.:.

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 19:42:47 GMT

gotta LOVE helping people out and getting excuses when asking for a favor in return..time to cut some fucking worthless fucks off..for real

-:x:-..M.I.A..as in the other kinda mia..-:x:-

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 18:42:39 GMT

I been kinda anti-social the last 2 days..I know myself..call it the latina blood in me or whatever..but I can probably be the biggest cunt you will ever meet when I am feeling stressed or down about something..and I learned by trial and error..I would rather just be a kitten in the corner and lick my wounds alone..then scratch the fuck out of everyone who comes in contact with me..
BUT..whats fucking cool as hell is I am dealing better now and back to my old self and come to post this and read about a queef..I know she didnt mean to write it to make me laugh or to be posted here..but thanks you know who you are..I havent laughed that hard in 2 days..and for me (and you know it)..thats a long time..heh
I gotta run downtown for some home improvement shit..project bathroom:olive green walls/hardwood floors/white cabinets with pewter knobs..now for the mathing bathroom shit..shouldnt be hard..
..saturday I think I have plans..if I can swing it..and if i get more details..*coughs*..
...(((DID I MENTION I NEED A FUCKING TROPICAL VACATION??)))...

....when the answer that you want..isnt the question that you state..come what may..come what may...

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 01:06:26 GMT

well..my sister called me crying because she lost her virginity to her boyfriend and now she is hypersensitive to any little thing he says or does thats remotely different..she is unsure if she regrets having sex with him..she is so afraid to be giving someone something that she reserved for a man who she loved to only turn around and have the guy get what he wants..than *poof*..gone..she feels vulnerable and scared and she realizes now that this is something you cant get back..
.*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*.TO DARCY.*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*.

I dont think I could of created a more beautiful..intelligent..loving sister if I had helped design you myself...
I couldnt be more proud of you and the decisions you make..you have grown up into this amazing woman and that hasnt and will not change..
since I know you read these..I will sum it up and stop being yer biggest fan..
...simple:I love you..you are part of the reason I smile daily..and I would do anything to keep the closeness we share..oh yeah..and move closer..thanks..we have 3 am fat runs to do

.*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*..*.
...OK....now that my sister knows she fucking kicks the most ass ever of any sister in the world..I can give a summary on today..
...I am all fucking cuntrageously bitchy today..I am so like knocking on the door of my friend menstration...so I am just that much more irritated when people are cryptic or out of nowhere they express an emotion I didnt know was lurking in their though process..I am confused..but refuse to debate a topic that I wasnt aware was being created..
I got a huge shipment from sephoria.com..mmmMMMmmMMm urban decay..stila..smashbox..dessert..brand name makeup owns my fucking vaginal secretions
...other then that..I am doing nothing but grocery shopping..hopefully dan will fart in the store and make the people behind us roll their watering eyes..AGAIN..heh i am out

""make your own sense..I am too tired..try again tomorrow""

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 10:31:38 GMT

..I am so fucking drained..I been pretty busy this weekend and I just want to upload a few pics and download some much needed porn...
......instead my exhausted head was trying to decode a fucking phonecall from "Drunky McLetstalk"..bad timing bucko..*shrugs*
..I am going to go catch up on some sleep..I must be massively PMS STYLE DRAMAQUEEFIN IT..because there is like a handful of people who dont make my fucking teeth itch in irritation..I dont wanna be a supercharged V-8 turbo bitch to them so I will talk to them tomorrow..if I am not downtown skullfucking mongoloids at random with a lawndart..

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 09:03:30 GMT

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...I must say that last night was probably a shitload more fun than I have had in a long ass time..the pocket pc got me major points..I think the 1ghz stick I got for him was what made him pop bonercoasterthough..
just a good fucking time with good people..no bullshit..no drama..no fucking headtrippers or conspiracy theorists..no jealousy no hypocritical bullshit..fuck I needed to hang with those vibes..it felt good..
I saw a friend who I went to school with at best buy..he is a..
fucking cop now..he was the biggest fucking stoner/hoodlum/anarchy kid in highschool..it was surreal..he also got fucking SMOKINGHOT..like he sold his soul to the devil hot..how the fuck did that happen..*shrugs*..we exchanged numbers and he went to the rod and custom show today with my brother and his friends before they headed back to the fucking HERM..he is coming over tomorrow with pics of his sisters baby..ok babies..she had triplets..fucking psycho soccer mom waiting to happen..heh..it should be fun..my sister is moving in with her boyfriend..she is so in love..its so amazingly adorable to see..she is just smitten..i grin everytime i watch how she gazes at him..*hears "dreamweaver" in the distance*..
...well..I now have a fuckingexcuse to leave the computer area..dan just fucking walked his dumpy ass across the living room so he could fuckingfart in my general area..smells like hot garbage..so I am out

-:-chino owns yer sexual secretions-:-

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 06:55:59 GMT

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""fucking gonna be all tired and shit""

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 10:46:21 GMT

WELCOME BACK MIGWAYNE!!!
GOOD TO HAVE YOU BACK

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Fri, 18 Feb 2005 05:52:59 GMT

I think I have pretty much experienced every kind of emotion in the past week there is..sadness..happiness..pain..pleasure..irritation..indifference..rage..peace...yeah its all been there.....
I miss people that left my life..I want certain people in my life to walk away..I am left lost at friendships that fell apart..and overwhelmed with joy at new friends I have made recently..I want to hold certain people at arms length while embracing a few others closer..I cant wait for parts of my life to be over and done with..yet am looking for new things to start and interest me..maybe I am premenstrual..maybe I have just been doing soul searching..I looked for my wrongdoings..and pointed fingers..I just want to be happy..really happy..the type of happiness that has you constantly sighing with a smile..and I want that for my friends and family as well..I am just so sick of all the negative vibes that seem to pollute friendships..relationships..and self esteem..not only mine but of the people I care about..
"*"..if I could fix it all..if I could hold it all..if I could smile all the way through..if I could make it dissapear for me and all of you..I would in a heartbeat.."*"
..there is a beautiful shining point to my "emo" moment (as jenn would call it..heh)...
my dads gaining weight and feels good..the best hes felt in months..he went and took my mom to some mexican dance in Pasco..haha..he is a killer dancer..we use to go to the cinco de mayo festivals at mckenzie park..my dad could dance like nobodies business..heh..maybe thats where i get it from..reguardless..it feels good to know my dad feels better lately
ok..done here for the night..I got to return some calls..and try to think up something to buy my sister for her birthday..bleh..she is picky..she is 19..I think I will go with "Darrins dance grooves"..so she can learn to pop and lock..heh..blah what to get a tomboy..

""stuck in my fucking head today""

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 15:21:25 GMT

...I'd give up forever to touch you..because I know that you feel me somehow...

""""nice talking to friends that make me smile again""""

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 00:39:13 GMT

..in life you have people that are always there for you..whether you talk to them everyday or there is this huge gap of time that passes..you know..if you have a problem..if you need someone to have your back..if you just need a laugh..this person is there for you..a true friend..someone that doesnt judge you for what you have done in your life..but someone who loves you for what you mean in their lives..I am in such a great mood because I had a long talk with George..I missed him..we talked casually..but this was a good "hours" long convo..just catching up..and talking about whats been going on in our lives..the good the bad the irritating and the sad..it was like we just talked yesterday..I value and treasure a friendship like that..everyone should..I LOVE YOU GEORGE...
although I will never look at a
chocolate milkshake
again..I love him
...OTHER then that my life is pretty gravy right now..I been doing a lot more house updating and am looking forward to my brother Michaels wedding in April..there have been a few bumps here and there..and I have a few things weighing heavy on my mind..but these are things I cant do a damn thing about so I wont fixate on them..write more later!

""""happy valentines day to everyone""""

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 19:42:31 GMT

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""my friends and thier icons""

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 23:55:25 GMT

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*~{:bitch..dont cast the first stone..thats my job:}~*

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